Torn for the first time

We met at his place. I was probably about 18-19. He's probably 32 or a bit more. I was beside myself with fear. Perhaps, a girl is feels the same before becoming a woman. I was simultaneously fucking excited, afraid and shy and I wanted...

I sat on the couch, we began to talk about some stuff, and somehow he relaxed me, I can say, he gained my favor. So we were talking about women (!), about politics and about sports for a while. Perhaps he was a good psychologist. I relaxed and became bored. I can say I wanted him. But the feeling was deeper. I wanted him not just as a man in that period of my life, but him only. I thought he was courageous and smart, charming, and before I thought all the gays are corny and weak. But he actually wasn't gay, just bi-sexual like me. Suddenly he brought me back to reality with the question "what sexual experience do you have?" and I lied saying I was no longer a virgin boy, but now I want to try with a man.

I sat on the couch. He knelt down and began pulling down my jeans. Now it's nice to remember, as if I have been in the skin of the girl and the boy at the same time tempted by him, I even estranged in the beginning, but he quickly made me feel pleasure. Then he offered me his cock. I didn’t make him force me, but I didn't like that either. No, I felt no disgust, I just couldn’t understand what a trick it is to do him a blowjob, when I do not have any fun. But, nevertheless, as exemplary first-grader, I was trying to repeat the movements seen in porn. Meanwhile, he was stroking my ass. Still, I really turned on and decided to get maximum pleasure from that night. So I offered my virgin ass to his fuck machine.

And later I myself asked him to fuck me. Maxim was pleasantly surprised. It didn’t take him long. I bent down, moved my legs a bit apart, bowed my head...

His cock rested against my ass like a mountain peak to the clouds. He slightly increased the pressure and drove in me. It was painful, but I wanted to please him, and suffered silently. Gradually he began going in and out of me, and soon it became not so painful and even pleasant. He tried in good faith, and I felt like in a girl’s skin, and that particularly excited, he increased the depth of getting in and the frequency. I was just groaning.

After he had cum, he asked me to lie my back down and relax, and made me a magnificent blowjob.

In general, this experience has been good, but I still do not like it, it’s not natural and, probably, he was not the most skillful lover...